after Sacks’ The man who Mistook his wife for a Hat
she made a mosaic out of all the cups she threw at the wall
I saw an opening
at a party in her garden
it was yellow and soft petalled
there is always an element of surprise in delight
I had never watched one open before
the brain has no pain receptors
with the skull open like a cup
the patient awake and answering questions
(the neuronal memory effectively regulates the implicit reduction)
the rain is awake
down your back from the tip of your plait
down between the cheeks of your buttocks
awake to the earth of you
—–man does not consist of memory alone
(the molecular ability intracellularly records the cellular reflexes)
—–Sacks said Nietzsche said:
—–Only great pain is the ultimate liberator of the spirit
(motor synthesis allows electrochemical habituation)
—–it animates the prosthesis
I am rent free
I have been living in the house of my body
all the windows and doors open
curtains wet with rain billow and whip
I sit
to remember is to put back together the dismembered
I close your hand around the open eye of the torch
—-Sacks said Freud said:
—-neurosis is reminiscence
(central interneurons close short-term amnesiac connections)
—–a phantom limb is essential if an artificial limb is to be used
the sky is so blue it has forgotten
every window is a ghost
—–disease as seduction
—–the vagueness before vision
—–a wellness can be genuine even if caused by an illness
and don’t let affirmation be an excuse to hold on
extinction blue
the cloudless sky
is opinionless
(lasting phosphorylates regulate behavioral transmitters)
extinction is not the same as forgetting
you replace one habit that holds up a beam
with another
—–you can only spot a deviation if you can identify a norm.
From Claire Gaskin’s collection, Paperweight.